L DOT.

LAUREN / LDOT. 20-something filipina. NYC&NJ. bi. urban aficionado / foodie / debauchery maven with a heart of gold & a resilient soul. easy going & LOVING life. lover of adventures, old school hiphop & bloody sports. Break necks, not hearts. & witticisms? kindamything.

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labels. 

It’s funny how much things can change. I used to be one of those saps who always needed to be in a relationship. While I’m in no way putting down the idea of being in a relationship…. I don’t quite know if that’s what I want right now. The thing is… the way I see it, if you need to always be in a relationship you’re essentially insecure as hell with yourself, that you must really not love yourself enough to be good on your own. Me? I’m soooo good on my own. The most “perfect” of relationships are never supplementary.. they’re always complimentary. I don’t see it as being “selfish”, or as being “isolated”. I’m enjoying life at it’s fullest, and while I love & appreciate the company.. why do we have to put a label on things? Why can’t we just be? I’m not a commitment-phobe (please, my last “real” relationship was 7 years) but I’m just happy with where I’m at. I’m taking my time in determining the type of person I wanna fully commit & settle down with, but I’m not sleeping around either. Just.. being a little bit selective. Yes, I was a little hurt over the last person I was seriously talking to.. but this isn’t even about having my guard up. Life is so good right now & I won’t lie, I’m a little afraid of falling victim to loss of individuality once I settle down. So until I’m convinced that that won’t happen, why can’t we just.. be? Is that so wrong?

I think too much like a man, me thinks. eek.